you used to take my breath away.

well, that guy who i stated in the post below as "my lover", no longer holds that title. he so rudely broke up over texts. BUT before he did so he told me he loved me. give me a break. that happened almost a month ago on november 14. i cried and frowned for a day and am now over him/our relationship. i did an awful lot of changing whilst that 8 and 1/2 month shindig went about. i became more confident and grew into myself. as i tried to find myself without the "us" i've realized a lot. you know, you can change so much in just one day.

as it is now the holiday season, i honestly just want someone that cares for me. i just need a guy that will stick around and hang with me. i'm really into quality time with people. like if he just hung with me all day and we did nothing but watch a movie, make cookies, and talk, i'd be perfectly fine. even just talking i'd be good.

i think i would like it more if i was actually a teenager for five seconds and hung out with people. due to my parents' divorce, my mom now has only me living with her at the house. and so it's challenging to go out. actually it was challenging even before the divorce. apparently i'm not allowed to have fun and be a regular teenager.

so, it's fine. i'll bottle it up and grow up. just like i have been doing for a long time.

well,

now life is good. i have a lover and you know what. LOVE CONQUERS ALL. all my worries, all the crap in my life. it can all go away when someone cares about you. yep, life is good. so i got through it. :) YAY!